winter things

- curling up in a lil nook and reading my book with the heater on high
- rubbing my hands together and then breathing warm air on them from my mouth which sounds like "haw"
- people saying "oh my god, it's so cold" to me like it is some new information and then having to respond in some polite/excited way that is like "i know right"
- walking to work thinking "i can't feel my face"
- seeing sunlight somewhere and then running to that place
- my hands are cold but my body is warm
- my flat mate saying "i hope you're going to put something warmer on" and then doing that
- thinking "should i take up knitting?" but then just going on my macbook a lot instead
- waiting for the water to get hot before washing my hands
- wearing cardigans over my zip up hoodie
- a million cups of tea
- beanies 24/7
- not wanting to get out of bed ever
- hugging my hot water bottle
- various soups
- wanting to curl up into the fetal position and rock gently back and forth
- thinking "is summer a thing?"
- driving in my dad's car, turning the heat on full blast and putting the windows down

beyonce - run the world (girls)

(thoughts during)

she's on a horse
now there's a lion
is beyonce royalty
is she saying 'we run this mother... dip'
is there an explicit version? just want 2 c her givin the finger
wow, she is so hood with this
want a dress made out of a golden disco ball
beyonce still got jelly.. um.. i mean that in a good way. mm jelly
weird contrast between lots of fabric.. and not much fabric re: clothing



(after)

Lately I have been thinking about this pop singer Beyoncé Knowles. She was in a successful Girl Band called 'destinys child'. Run the world (girls) is a recent song of hers. She also headlined a music festival in the United Kingdom called Glastonbury. She has a powerful voice and is a very good dancer. She and her 'destinys child' cohorts are well known for coining the term Bootylicious. A video I watched of her singing the kings of leon song sex on fire was very moving and powerful somehow. She is a convincing performer and currently has a perm.

the end of the world

Was just reading through an old zine Susie and I made, and really liked this thing Susie wrote.

PAJP #4

People are just podcasts 4 by susiea

Poems from James Duncan, Alice May Connolly, Jacob Steinberg, Sam Pink, Jillian Clark, Prathna Lor, Brian Le Lay, Arthur Rimbaud, Eliza Scott, Alison Kistenbroker, Elaine Sun, Shaun Gannon, Wagner Israel Cilio III, Josephine Rowe, and Amber Fresh.

+ some of my favourited tweets

+ our own poems

+ accents

+ my "trademark podcaster's cough"

Feel like the end is the best, feel like we really "come out of our shells". Heehee.

#dierkslife

exciting things

Hands Like Mirrors launch:
(a part of national poetry day and international zine month (how did i manage that))

susie coming to visit me in july

got a stall at the zine fest next month (let me know if you want me to sell your zines there or something)

alice, eamonn and jackson flying to auckland to read at HLM launch

did i say SUSIE COMING TO VISIT

combined ustream/poetry podcast when susie is here

several forthcoming chapbooks

gonna eat a strawberry muffin for lunch tomorrow

zine nook

feeling happy, listening to 'Yuck' in my zine nook

day in review: saturday 11 june

Woke up around 11am. Shower. Organised via Facebook to go to Salvos and have coffee with my housemate Ashley. It was a sunny ass day, 10/10. Got to Salvos and bought a dress, a really awesome book about seasons 1-4 of Sex and the City with lots of pictures of the cast and an amazing quiz, The Family Law by Benjamin Law and the most recent Sleepers Almanac, all for $20! 10/10 From Salvos we walked to this really awesome cafe called Three Bags Full. I ordered huevos rancheros (fried eggs with tortillas, beans, avo and some sort of corn salsa) and Ashley had scrambled eggs. Both these things were delicious, although I kinda forgot that I'm meant to not eat stuff with gluten in it (tortillas) and that meant I couldn't buy any sweeties to go so 9/10. As we were walking back home on Nicholson street we saw a market set up in the front yard of the Steiner school. There were dresses and cute things visible so we crossed to go into it. On the street I ran into my friend Helen who I hadn't seen in ages! Big bear hug - 10/10!! Went into the market and caught up with Helen while Ashley bought two dresses and some nice shoes. Managed to restrain myself from buying things, which is 10/10 in terms of finances, but in terms of my love of consuming about a 4. We walked back home through some cute backstreets and alleys; Ashley picked some clippings from people's nature strips. At home, I picked up my knitting and immediately got the train to town. Met up with my friend Laura Smith at Federation Square, where she and her friends had been knitting due to it being WORLDWIDE KNIT IN PUBLIC DAY!! Effing 10/10 for that day existing. Sat knitting in this giant pyramid thing for a while, lots of tourists/general people wandering through taking pictures of us in bean bags, weird being looked at like some sort of tourist attraction, especially when your hands are cold 6/10. Me and Laura got coffees and cake though, a tasty 10/10. We all parted ways talking about what we were doing for the rest of the night, I was telling Laura's friend Owen that I'd be livetweeting Footloose that evening, turns out he does a monthly event on twitter called Tweetfilm another 10/10 for finding likeminded people. That night I just stayed at home, chattin to my bestie Steaky, while livetweetin Footloose. AWESOME DAY GUYZ.

Some of our tweets:

irl #2

zine area

saturday nite makin

irl #1

mail buzz

i am sending some zines and stuff to people next week.

if you want me to send you something, just email me: staceteague@gmail.com or comment here

um yeah

hehe

between you & me by amber fresh

On Sunday last week I was selling zines at the Emerging Writers' Festival Page Parlour at Fed Square. I met these folk from Perth Zine Collective and popped over to their stall for a gander at what they'd brought over from the west. Keen on the poetry as always, I picked this up.



I am happy about my choice, for the following reasons

two boys

we were kissing and
i asked you
'what do you like about me?'
and you said
'when you don't talk'



we were talking and
i asked you
'what do you want to do?'
and you said
'this'

get fucked

no-one told me
to 'get fucked'
today
not as a joke
not for real

but it's still only early

excerpt from bitumen

one time i asked a boy to push me over in the carpark where we were and
at that instant i thought it was an incredibly romantic thing to ask a boy



It is a small book of poems about things 'between you & me' and it seems pretty personal and introspective, but then there are funny parts which is important, I think.

I like that the poems seem to be pretty unfiltered. Feel like poetry I consider to be 'good' seems like it is really 'organic' or 'natural', though probably this is a pretty conscious technique.

Next time we do a poetry podcast I will read some more for you.

05/06/11

Woke up at 8:10am and got ready to go to the markets with my flat mate, Hannah. I quickly made a mix cd for us to listen to on the drive which mostly consisted of Led Zeppelin songs. At the market I bought a bag of carrots, a big ass kumara, bananas and brocolli. Afterwards we went to get some groceries and I bought a real cool beanie for $3.50. We bought sushi and ate it in the parking lot. Then we went to our favourite coffee place in Titirangi called Siren Cafe and went down to French Bay to drink our coffee (single-shot soy mocha in da house). It was a real sunny day and the tide was in so we took off our shoes and rolled up our jeans and dangled our feet in the water. Listened to my Sunday mix. 100% good vibes. Then we went home and we cleaned and I did washing and things of that nature. We decided we wanted to go on an adventure since it was a public holiday the next day but we couldn't think of what to do. Somehow we decided that the most sensible thing to do was to stay at home and take acid. So we did that. I spent a while writing things and chatting to people on the internet and Hannah washed all the walls in the bathroom and toilet. I started to feel a familiar hum, a weakness in my limbs, a sort of throbbing throughout my whole body. Decided to live tweet my acid experience. I talked to wbech, Ben Rosamond and Eamonn. Listened to Beach House for 2 hours straight because it made me feel calm. Went for a bike ride around my neighbourhood. Explored the forest a bit. I found a patch of grass and lay there in the sun for probably about 45 minutes. I felt peaceful. Then I went home and me and my flat mate got our gumboots on and loaded up with carrots, pears and mandarins and walked to the beach. The tide was out so we could walk way around the harbour. We found a secret pathway into the bush and we walked through that for a while. We found this old shed/shack that had written on the door: "Do not come in," which freaked us out. Then we walked around the rocks and there were lots of cool birds: shags, herons, oystercatchers. We walked through the water and laughed about the concept of asparagus. Went home and made falefal burgers. Real good falefal burgers. Like, man. Felt pretty normal apart from a vague buzzing sensation. Mainly just felt real chill and got real into music and popcorn. Listened to a lot of Led Zeppelin. Did a tiny chat with James Duncan and Carolyn DeCarlo and also Jackson Nieuwland and Ras Mashramani were there but not on camera. Made them listen to Led Zeppelin. During the guitar solo in Stairway To Heaven did an impromptu dance and ran and jumped on my flat mate's bed with her on it. Then I watched an episode of Sex and the City. Video skyped Susie for an hour and a half. Y'know, just chatting with my bestie, rappin' to Chamillionaire. Then I went to sleep at 11:17pm. Good ass day.

Tweets:

just some old myspace thing

Psychoanalyze Yourself, Don't read ahead, just copy and paste the following into a NEW bulletin BEFORE you read my answers. Then answer the following questions one at a time WITHOUT LOOKING AHEAD with the first thought that comes to mind. Then read what each answer means at the end.

1. You are walking in the woods. You are not alone. Who's with you?
stacey teague

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal?
cat

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
it has a look and then scurries away

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and before you is your dream house, what size is it?
it's like a decent sized terrace house that is surprisingly roomy

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
ish

6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room and see the dining table is covered with?
foood

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
i dunno

8. What do you do with the cup you find?
oh it's polystyrene, someone's been bloody littering haven't they. i pick it up, obviously.

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at a body of water, what kind is it?
lake

10. How do you cross that body of water?
there happens to be a boat also upon this lake

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The ANSWERS

1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important to you.

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition.

5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome

at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You'd prefer people not drop by unannounced.

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.

7. The durability of the material with the cup is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.

8. What you did with the cup is representative of your attitude.

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your relationships.

10. The way you cross the water is representative to how easy or hard you expect your life to be.

"there is never any need to be lonely i think"

i feel lonely

i want to have dinner with someone

or not lonely, maybe i should just watch tv

i guess i don't even feel lonely at all

genuinely

i just want something different to happen