glacier

late nights and half moons and drinking in the morning and in the night and never stopping to remember except when i had to sit in the boot and i looked out at the night sky and felt it all and it seemed fucked until my friend passed me a beer and we laughed till our cheeks hurt and we couldn't laugh anymore but somehow we did and we have our arms around each other walking down the street and we are singing and we cook meals and make tea and we play records in the living room and dance around on the hard wood floors and i climb into bed under heavy blankets and i don't want to think of anything and i sit on buses and think of you and i sit on buses and i don't think of you and i feel the sun and i feel the wind and it is cold without a jumper and i listen to music coming out of my laptop and i feel afraid and it is the middle of the night and there is no other body near me