the bravery

writing anything on this computer screen seems absolutely ridiculous. this massive platform glares at me and makes anything I write seem so absurd and pretentious. possibly a subconscious parallel of how pretentious I feel I am (sometimes).

I sent away my notebook to a friend yesterday and I miss it. I did it very carelessly, scurrying to get to the post office before four o'clock, without considering how much I was letting go. I need to find a replacement: one that will fit in my bag and just come around with me everywhere.

I have been lazily contemplating my reasons for getting blogger and also considering what I intend to include in it. So far, I have no idea and I kinda want to delete this shit cause I wholeheartedly prefer livejournal.

Blogger seems to encourage publicity and linkage rather than focus on the content of actual blogs. Lacking substance, the content of blogs seem to be competitive, less for personal enjoyment and expression (IN SOME CASES). A bit of a blog realm McDonalds, if you will.